Sit Still

Sitting still has never been a strong suit of mine. I just thought it was kind of my personality.
In a sense it is, the why behind it actually makes sense but I’d never thought of it in that light.
Recently I took an Enneagram which I talk about in the blog Perceptual Personality.

Keep it Moving

Turns out…
I keep moving so that I am always occupied.
If I’m occupied I don’t have to deal with or process emotions.
I’ve reflected on this as of late and it’s an accurate assessment.
I kinda always thought I just liked to stay busy.

I tend to live life in a happy bubble, I rarely watch the news because it’s devastating.
I’ll get real with people about their stuff but rarely share in depth about my own.
Often I do what others want because I want them to be happy and I’m just happy to hang.
I fill all the spaces in a day, I can’t say no to people – if there is time to give, I will give it.
Boundaries don’t really exist, I don’t create them for myself. 
However, I can and do respect others boundaries.
But because I haven’t set my own boundaries or I say yes to others too often…
My boundaries aren’t really seen by others because I myself, don’t know where they begin or end. 

Sit Still

I’m working on sitting still and processing. It’s scary.
If I’m constantly occupied I feel like I’m less likely to mess up.
Less likely to let sin in, let sin distract me. 

The Lord says: Be still and know that I am God (Psalms 47:10)

Reality is…
The busier we get – the more we fill our schedules and just – keep moving.
The further from ourselves we become, the less aware we are of our state of mind.
The further from the Lord we stray and the quicker we are to get distracted by sin.

We start to fill our time so much that slowly we let go of important stuff.
20 minutes of reading your bible during the day becomes a quick 5-minute devotional.
Dinner with the Family where conversation happens becomes eat and move on to that checklist or activity.
We’ve filled so much space we’ve left no time to get interrupted, to be in community with others.
There is 0 time left for you, to take care of yourself. To grow, to assess.

Does anyone else out there tend to do any of the above?

There is a book called Boundaries (it’s a red cover w/ a pencil)
I’ve yet to read it, but I’ve heard lots of rave reviews of it, including one from my Husband.
It’s a goal of mine this month, to read it. If you want to read it with me, reach out!
It’ll be a Boundaries Book Club!

March I plan to read The Ruthless Elimination of Hurry if anyone is interested! 
These books are part of my sit still plan. 
For years I’ve just kept moving, kept doing.
It’s time to get intentional in my day to day.
If anyone resonates with any of the above we could start a FB accountability group! 
Just a thought. 

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